Guess who is writing for the 2nd day in a row?????? ME! Don't worry, it'll be short.
Tomorrow is a busy day as usual, and right in the middle of my afternoon I have to do what I HATE to do - take Olivia to the DR and watch her get shots :( You'd think after doing this a bazillion times with Addy AND after already initiating Olivia into the Shots Club at her 2 month appointment, I'd be a pro at this.
It still gets me every time. And, sure, for the typical reason of my little baby being hurt and screaming a cry that I have ONLY heard during these awful shot visits, or in Addy's case, one other time during a terrible diaper rash episode.
But, in honesty, the screaming isn't what makes me the saddest. It's watching my little baby's face. There she is, just staring up at her Momma, wrapping her little fingers around mine, and she has no idea what is about to happen to her. The first shot goes in and she flinches but there is that 1-2 seconds that go by before the pain hits that really get to me. It's like she has that extra 1-2 seconds to contemplate what is actually going on and I can just tell by her eyes that she is thinking, "Mom, what is happening to me?" For a reason unknown to her she is getting hurt multiple times and the only person she has to blame is her Momma, who she hasn't stopped staring at the entire time.
IT. KILLS. ME.
BUT, it's important and as soon as the nurse leaves the room and I wrap my little lady up in my arms and whisper in her ear while she calms down, I know she has already forgotten what has just happened to her and I have become her favorite person in the world again!
So I will spend my day tomorrow dreading that 3:15 appointment. I mean just look at her:
Would you want to watch that sweet little pumpkin face hurting?.... Me Neither :(
Sincerely Yours,
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